Rambles

So yeah. I have a huge test in two days. Vestibular for Fuvest. 

It's a five hour test. Not something I'm going to enjoy. At all.

But I've been thinking about what it means to me. You see, as someone in between high school and college, I'm no one. I have no life. My existance is just in between two phases. I'm something in between a 0 and a 1. But nothing.

My friends are all far away, yet I'm not in an environment to make close ones.

My daily life consists of studying non-stop.

My only sanity derives from sometimes playing tennis on weekends and reading books.

And truthfully, this is the first time in years where I'm no where near anyone who actually cares about me or for me. Excluding my parents of course.

I knows emo. But trust me it's not. I don't need attention, even though some would disagree. I enjoy the company of close friends, but I can live without it. And I guess being single for a while is healthy. God knows how horrible it was to be going in and out of relationships in high school, not that I don't want to date. It's just soothing to have this break from all the drama of having lot's of people around me all the time. Then again, high school in a boarding school was my best decision EVER.

I dont know where i'm going with this, but still... this is my first real posting on the blog. Other than the poems that is. 

I really liked writing them. Sometimes I'm in class and I just start being inspired. That's why i use the word Muse so much. But still, there are some real muses in my life. People that have inspired me to write poetry. They know who they are. Hopefully.

Where was I? Oh yeah... Stuck between two worlds.